Goals and mid -year resolutions.

When I have my babies I try to start out in a positive frame of mind and have all these goals in my mind. Mainly breastfeeding. Trey would not. Would. Not. It hit me hard, being a first time Mom. It contributed to some Post Partum Depression. So when I had Sophie I had the same goal, to breastfeed her too. I knew it may not be possible but I was going to, once again, give it my best effort. Knowing that it is best for baby and actually beneficial to mom too and that this would be my last shot to breastfeed my baby I was hoping very much to be successful this time. Well needless to say I was not. She would nurse for an hour and still be starving. I could even pump more after she was done but I could never pump much. So I was not successful this time. It hit me not as hard as I was prepared this time that it may not work but I was let down and feel/felt defeated. I knew I needed to do something to make myself feel successful at something. Not something normal but something I knew I shouldnt be able to do. I am a member of a bulletin board online that has a group of women participating in a program called Couch to 5K. It basically means that it can prepare anyone even a couch potato to run a 5K supposedly in 9 weeks. It is 3 days a week for 30 minutes.Now a 5K is 3 miles so that probably doesnt sound terrible amazing to anyone but anytime I hear someone say they are a runner I say "I dont run unless something is chasing me" So this is a big deal to me. I just dont run. I have bad lungs and I get shin splint when I do any excersize and well I just dont stick to any program much less running. I have always hated it and thought it was so terribly dumb. But seeing those women, who are just like me, accomplish that program and knowing that I shouldnt be able to do this I decided this would be my goal that I could conquer. I will beat this. So I am doing the couch to 5K program. JD said he would do it with me. The first day I started (week1 day1) I thought I would die. Literally. I hurt immediatly after. I couldnt breathe or walk. I sat down when I got home and could not get up. Trey said "Mommy did you fall and get a boo boo?" lol I was miserable. I was also very down thinking that I would never be able to accomplish this goal. I was feeling defeated. That day was an alternating program of jogging and walking. Toward the end I had to walk some during 2 of the jogging sessions. The second night I did better but the shin splints were a bit painful at first. I lagged way behind JD. He would get so far out ahead of my during the jogging portions then walk back to me on the walk portions so he was going twice as far as me. He is a brick house. The last night of week 1 JD had forgotten and already showered and there was a football game on so I did it alone. I did really well. I set my own pace and did not have to walk during the jog portions at all. I even ran a little over time. (A few seconds but hey small victories.) When I got home I felt good. I could breathe ( I was winded of course but I could talk and breathe.) I felt great. I actually feel like I can accomplish this. I. Can. Do. This. At first I was saying I didnt even have to compete in an official 5K race I just wanted to know for myself I could but now I want to compete. No I am not thinking I will place or even do well but I want it to be the culmination of my goal to mark my success in public. I now also have a new goal. I want to compete in a triathalon. This is definately a long term goal (that I am not sure I will ever accomplish because I dont even know if there is one locally ver) but a goal none the less. I actually think doing the 3 things, swimming, running and biking will suit my attention span and mentality well. Onto the goal at hand. Tonight I do week 2 day 1 of Couch to 5K.

Week	Workout 1	Workout 2	Workout 3
1	WEEK1 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	WEEK1 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	WEEK1 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
2	WEEK2 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	WEEK2 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	WEEK2 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
3	WEEK3 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)	WEEK3 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)	WEEK3 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)
4	WEEK4 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	WEEK4 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	WEEK4 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
5	WEEK5 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	WEEK5 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes) Walk 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes)	WEEK5 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog two miles (or 20 minutes) with no walking.
6	WEEK6 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	WEEK6 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes)	WEEK6 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 25 minutes) with no walking.
7	WEEK7 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).	WEEK7 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).	WEEK7 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).
8	WEEK8 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).	WEEK8 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).	WEEK8 DAY3 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).
9	WEEK9 DAY1 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).	WEEK9 DAY2 Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).	WEEK9 DAY3 The final workout! Congratulations! Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).